My (racist) (hilarious) (violent) (first) Game (demo).
My (racist) (hilarious) (violent) (first) Game (demo).
I first started sex work about 4 years ago. During this time of work, I had my share of part time crossdressers who wanted the experience of a "real" transsexual. Usually dom/sub/sissy scenes. I would say quite a few of could fit Dr. Lawrence’s paraphilic profile, at least in the themes of their fantasies.
The reason I quit sex work over 2 years ago was after a very awful encounter with a TG client. I was desperate to pick up a quick 200 bucks and went to a trannie hooker bar for these purposes. I had seen this person at the same bar a couple of times before, always in male attire. He approached me and I told him what I was after. He agreed to my terms and we went back to his house. By his plucked eyebrows I assumed he was a crossdresser. I figured he wanted something fetishy. Probably to be dressed up himself. Maybe called a sissy. No big deal. Money is money.
What ensued was the most awful, harrowing 10 hours of my life. I was basically held prisoner in his bedroom the entire night into the next morning while he demonstrated his mastery of strangleholds and various wrestling and fighting techniques that he had learned in the military, "in 'Nam," bragging how he knew how to kill a man instantly. He forcibly held me down on his bed while he described in humiliating and matter-of-fact detail what exactly was wrong with my body, why I would never be a "real" woman, what surgical procedures I should have done to look better. Anything he thought was good about my figure or looks he would counter with how much better such and such ts porn star's or female illusionist's was, who by the way was "much better at this" than I could ever be, don't I dare forget it. All of this was said and done with aggressive nonchalance, as though it were perfectly reasonable of him.
While he made sure I didn't think too highly of myself, he demonstrated his own extensive body modifications, which included silicon injected breasts, head to toe body waxing, and silicon-injected hips. He forced oral sex upon me and forced me to perform oral sex upon him. And to top it all off he penetrated me without a condom at least 3 or 4 times during the night, while he "cuddled" me in a chokehold as we "slept" , so that I didn't try to get away. I literally was unable to move off of the bed for the entire night. Nor did I get paid.
(Actually the session started off legit, but he wanted to penetrate me without a condom, as he thought he should be able to do so at what it was costing him. I quickly gave him the money back and got up to leave, but he had other ideas).
No, I did not go to the police. I was in Texas and you can imagine the treatment I could look forward to explaining "Oh you see I was tricking for johns at my friendly neighborhood drag bar when an ex-vietnam vet shemale took me to his/her house and raped me. S/he wore stilettos and a curly blond wig the whole time, the saucy wench!"
I don't really talk much about the experience. It devastated me on many levels and eventually cured me of my dabbling in prostitution for good.
I'm not even trying to equate the experience with Dr. Lawrence’s behavior. I don't think. Your story just got me thinking that maybe this whole paraphilic thing is just an obsession with transsexuality, transsexuals, and transsexual procedures for their own sake. Could it be that in some, this paraphilia manifests as a predatory sexual behavior very much along the lines of Pedophilia et al...?
As outlandish as trans-on-trans crime sounds... is there indeed a predatory dynamic at play here?
I'm not trying to say that all people with this paraphilia are like this, or that the reason I was raped and attacked is the paraphilia's fault. I put myself in a stupid situation with a stranger in a dangerous illegal occupation.
But, seriously.
Just thinking.
The reason I quit sex work over 2 years ago was after a very awful encounter with a TG client. I was desperate to pick up a quick 200 bucks and went to a trannie hooker bar for these purposes. I had seen this person at the same bar a couple of times before, always in male attire. He approached me and I told him what I was after. He agreed to my terms and we went back to his house. By his plucked eyebrows I assumed he was a crossdresser. I figured he wanted something fetishy. Probably to be dressed up himself. Maybe called a sissy. No big deal. Money is money.
What ensued was the most awful, harrowing 10 hours of my life. I was basically held prisoner in his bedroom the entire night into the next morning while he demonstrated his mastery of strangleholds and various wrestling and fighting techniques that he had learned in the military, "in 'Nam," bragging how he knew how to kill a man instantly. He forcibly held me down on his bed while he described in humiliating and matter-of-fact detail what exactly was wrong with my body, why I would never be a "real" woman, what surgical procedures I should have done to look better. Anything he thought was good about my figure or looks he would counter with how much better such and such ts porn star's or female illusionist's was, who by the way was "much better at this" than I could ever be, don't I dare forget it. All of this was said and done with aggressive nonchalance, as though it were perfectly reasonable of him.
While he made sure I didn't think too highly of myself, he demonstrated his own extensive body modifications, which included silicon injected breasts, head to toe body waxing, and silicon-injected hips. He forced oral sex upon me and forced me to perform oral sex upon him. And to top it all off he penetrated me without a condom at least 3 or 4 times during the night, while he "cuddled" me in a chokehold as we "slept" , so that I didn't try to get away. I literally was unable to move off of the bed for the entire night. Nor did I get paid.
(Actually the session started off legit, but he wanted to penetrate me without a condom, as he thought he should be able to do so at what it was costing him. I quickly gave him the money back and got up to leave, but he had other ideas).
No, I did not go to the police. I was in Texas and you can imagine the treatment I could look forward to explaining "Oh you see I was tricking for johns at my friendly neighborhood drag bar when an ex-vietnam vet shemale took me to his/her house and raped me. S/he wore stilettos and a curly blond wig the whole time, the saucy wench!"
I don't really talk much about the experience. It devastated me on many levels and eventually cured me of my dabbling in prostitution for good.
I'm not even trying to equate the experience with Dr. Lawrence’s behavior. I don't think. Your story just got me thinking that maybe this whole paraphilic thing is just an obsession with transsexuality, transsexuals, and transsexual procedures for their own sake. Could it be that in some, this paraphilia manifests as a predatory sexual behavior very much along the lines of Pedophilia et al...?
As outlandish as trans-on-trans crime sounds... is there indeed a predatory dynamic at play here?
I'm not trying to say that all people with this paraphilia are like this, or that the reason I was raped and attacked is the paraphilia's fault. I put myself in a stupid situation with a stranger in a dangerous illegal occupation.
But, seriously.
Just thinking.
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Hi there, welcome to z2.
if you haven't already, you might want to look at ZZT Syndromes, which covers a lot of basic do's and don'ts regarding ZZT.
Good luck with your projects.
if you haven't already, you might want to look at ZZT Syndromes, which covers a lot of basic do's and don'ts regarding ZZT.
Good luck with your projects.
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I'm going to ask you that about Syndromes based on the title screen alone.kylerd wrote:Did you even play it?
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That demo wasn't even intended for public.
http://senduit.com/215d9b <---this is the real shit
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Umm, so you posted it why then? No matter.kylerd wrote:That demo wasn't even intended for public.
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My god! That demo sucked... Well ish.
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